Today's blog is essentially about one of my current problems, which probably isn't that interesting reading, unless you know me, or you're a child psychologist. I'll start writing about some films tomorrow, alright? =)
On a sleepy Sunday, where I'd probably be shooting someone online with my usual cry of 'Oh YEAH! M4 BITCHES!' or something to that effect. But then again, my Counter-Strike files are stuffed up anyway, so I'll be here for a bit longer. Also, it's always on a Sunday where I'll think about my past, and the things that might have happened, had I done something else.
Well, I guess this means that this blog is dedicated to my past, but it's also dedicated to my future, and possibly, what might have happened, had I actually trusted my instincts. It's kinda unfortunate really, but well- I've got an awesome friend in Korea right now, and we've had a bit of a history together, we were never in a relationship, but we were getting really close before she left.
Because I was too much of a chicken, it'll be another 5 years before I'll be able to see her again. Probably, I should be out there, looking for someone else- but I just don't have the time, or the effort to find another girl. It's better for my studies, but I can feel my soul dying with each passing day. Not much is keeping me to this world, save a few hopes that I'll have in the future. It doesn't sound good to me at all, and with each passing minute- I'm unsure about how long I'll be able to last for.
The picture above relates to how I feel right now, empty in the middle, with my mind being consumed by the elements, and a machine corrupting and twisting my heart, with each passing second. Two wings are attached to it, those symbolize my desire for freedom, for one last chance.
One Chance, Two Lives, One Destiny
(lol, corny =)
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